And what’s true? Is it true that the city of Salt Lake, the Zion of the “New World,” has worked towards this dynamic whereby minorities and, more specifically, poorer-class citizens (I think now I dislike “lower” as a classification… and, here, a fifth categories among the false categories of truth—the truth of facts that have slide quietly into judgments.)
And, what’s false… is it false to say Gov. Herbert intends to manipulate the citizens of Utah when he says that Utah is getting healthier, the air is getting better and that we are not in a health crisis… or, when he continually points out, even berates, people that the “solution is sitting in their driveway”—drive less.
Is it false to say my mother intends to manipulate me, my sister, anyone else she can get to talk with her (those few people always having to be replaced by others)? I don’t know, that’s the answer. Or, maybe the answer is it doesn’t matter… but that’s not right… it does matter… it’s only that I will never be able to answer that question… or, maybe, I don’t want to? I don’t know… I do know, or think, or believe, or hope, (verbs falling out of place, out of fashion until there is no action) that I can’t bring myself to answer the question… because to admit, on the one hand, that she is fully in control of her actions is to cast her as, by this point in my life, a cruel person, if not evil… and not just a person, but an evil woman… and to see her like this would mean I must abandon her and to do this means, I worry, to abandon some not insignificant degree of my humanity and ability to treat those I care about, those I love, with the full humanity—the full trust and intimacy—they deserve. But, on the other hand, to admit that she has no control over her actions, well then what does that say about me, who does want to abandon her or wants her to abandon me… how many times have I made sure she has access to all of her pills before I close the front door and drive away?
Is it false to say she lives in no community, no city… or the city she lives in has a population of one… a space that has no place? And, what’s false…
Is it false to think that Gov. Herbert does care about the environment and how it effects Utah’s citizens?
